You have prayed about it. Fasted about it. Cried alone in the bathroom about it. And still woke up the next morning and acted like everything was fine.
They told you all men are like that. That marriage is hard. That you need to be more patient. More submissive. More prayerful. More understanding.
You have been smiling on Sunday while dying on Tuesday. Hosting dinners. Attending church. Showing up for everyone. While no one showed up for you.
He has never hit you. So you tell yourself it does not count. But he hits you with silence. With blame. With confusion. With words that make you doubt your own mind.
He stops talking to you. Not for a day. Sometimes for weeks. Sometimes for months. No explanation. No argument. Just silence used as a punishment. And you walk on eggshells trying to figure out what you did wrong, even though you did nothing wrong.
You are the one paying the bills. Raising the children. Holding the home together. Carrying everyone emotionally. And he watches you break and calls it your job. You are exhausted in a way sleep cannot fix.
You have tried to leave the conversation, and somehow you ended up apologising for starting it. You do not even know how that keeps happening.
Your mother says endure. His family says pray. The pastor says submit. And you are sitting there wondering why your obedience is not making things better.
You have started to wonder, very quietly, if you are the problem. If you are too much. Too emotional. Too sensitive. If you are the reason your own home does not feel safe.
The woman you used to be, the one who laughed easily, who had dreams, who took up space without apology, feels like a stranger to you now.
My sister. What you are living through has a name. And you deserve to know what it is.
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